So I got some beta readers (who have been EXCELLENT--there will be a post entirely dedicated to them later), and I got some distance, and I took a deep breath, and Tyler-Rose read the dang thing really thoroughly and gave me terrifically helpful feedback, and I've looked at it honestly and...
I HAVE TO DO ANOTHER FREAKING REVISION.
I am a perfectionist. BUT, as was addressed (again, ages ago) in this post, I do not believe I am tinkering into oblivion. I'm just trying to make it as good as I can make it without an agent and without an editor. Becuase that is the only way the thing will ever make it to the hands of an agent or editor.
BUT I'M SO IMPATIENT. I WANT TO SEND IT OFF NOW.
But I CAN'T becuase I have a whole list of things that I already know I can improve. Things that need a tweak (sometimes a big tweak) becuase that will make it a better book. My estimated time frame for this revision is about three months.
THREE MONTHS. THREE FREAKING MONTHS.
Right now the inside of my head sounds something like this:
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end of the world
courtesy of saavem
Besides, so much happens in three months. By the time I can finally query, all the agents will be dead, no one will be reading books anymore, and the publishing houses will be full. (Becuase publishing houses definitely get full. Just like trash cans and water bottles.) And then the apocalypse will come. And as the meteors come crashing down upon me, all I'll be able to think is that if only I'd submitted while the romance in subplot #5 and the tension in subplot #2 were just mediocre, people would have read me, and then the meteors would have looked like swiftly descending butterflies instead of lethal balls of flaming rock.
So yes, I am far from content with the facts of my writing timeline...
But I am also so very determined. I'M GOING TO DO THIS.