Sunday, May 20, 2012

I WANT TO QUERY NOW (REPRISE)

Wasn't I JUST here 7 months ago, saying the SAME THING?  (Why yes, I was.)


So I got some beta readers (who have been EXCELLENT--there will be a post entirely dedicated to them later), and I got some distance, and I took a deep breath, and Tyler-Rose read the dang thing really thoroughly and gave me terrifically helpful feedback, and I've looked at it honestly and...

I HAVE TO DO ANOTHER FREAKING REVISION. 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. 


I am a perfectionist.  BUT, as was addressed (again, ages ago) in this post, I do not believe I am tinkering into oblivion.  I'm just trying to make it as good as I can make it without an agent and without an editor.  Becuase that is the only way the thing will ever make it to the hands of an agent or editor. 

BUT I'M SO IMPATIENT.  I WANT TO SEND IT OFF NOW. 

But I CAN'T becuase I have a whole list of things that I already know I can improve.  Things that need a tweak (sometimes a big tweak) becuase that will make it a better book.  My estimated time frame for this revision is about three months. 

THREE MONTHS.  THREE FREAKING MONTHS. 


Right now the inside of my head sounds something like this: 


picture of the
end of the world
 courtesy of saavem
Three months?  Nooooo!  That's such a long time!  Might as well be a year!  Or a decade!  Heck, it might as well be a century!  And how am I POSSIBLY going to survive waiting to query for another century??????

Besides, so much happens in three months. By the time I can finally query, all the agents will be dead, no one will be reading books anymore, and the publishing houses will be full. (Becuase publishing houses definitely get full. Just like trash cans and water bottles.) And then the apocalypse will come. And as the meteors come crashing down upon me, all I'll be able to think is that if only I'd submitted while the romance in subplot #5 and the tension in subplot #2 were just mediocre, people would have read me, and then the meteors would have looked like swiftly descending butterflies instead of lethal balls of flaming rock.




So yes, I am far from content with the facts of my writing timeline...

But I am also so very determined.  I'M GOING TO DO THIS. 

8 comments:

  1. You'll get there. It helps me to think about JK Rowling when I feel impatient. I wouldn't say I'm her biggest fan or anything but I think she took a few years to start and finish the first Harry Potter book. She got the idea in 1990 and finished it in 1995. And now look at her! It took her quite a while to get published so it'll happen for us. :)

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  2. To also add to Robin's post - Susan, JK Rowling is a great inspiration....It took her many rejections (12 of them) to get published. She had an agent but it took her a while to get the HP idea; originally she was an adult writer :)
    DON'T GIVE UP!!!!! Not until ya hit 100 :-P

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    1. I didn't know that about Rowling specifically--very interesting and casts her success in a different light. Thanks so much. :)

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  3. Oh, I know how you feel. I feel that way many times during revision/editing.
    But hang on! It'll pass! Don't give! And good luck!

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  4. Ugh, I know what you mean. Sometimes waiting (especially when you know you're going to have to do more waiting after that waiting) is awful. But having the will to wait because you know your story will be better for it is all that matters. Good luck with the revisions and the eventual querying!

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  5. Lol! This is my biggest problem - patience. And it's gotten me into trouble several times (more than several times :) ). Calm down and work and wait. I read somewhere that even a glacier moves faster than the writing business.

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  6. Thanks, everyone! You guys are great. <3

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