Monday, August 24, 2015

Some Days are Rough

What follows is the transcript of a Facebook conversation Susan and I had sometime last week.
 
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10:17am

Susan Francino

Damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn. Novel. Dammit.

10:18am

Tyler-Rose Counts

Yeah
I've changed about two words in the last half hour
and it wasn't because the thing is perfect
more like I was petrified by its sudden overwhelming awfulness

10:20am

Susan Francino:

UGH i was hoping you were in the mood to talk me off a ledge.
I guess We'll just stare over it together.

10:20am

Tyler-Rose Counts:

NOPE

10:20am

Susan Francino

DAMMIT
The only comforting thought i have right now is that I REALLY THINK a huge part of my problem at this moment is that my routine has been exploded, repeatedly, for days on end, and THAT HAS TO STOP.

10:22am

Tyler-Rose Counts

EMPHATIC NOPE


10:22am

Susan Francino

bUT I'M GOING TO SEE KATE
AND OF COURSE I WANT TO DO THAT

10:22am

Tyler-Rose Counts

Kate?

10:22am

Susan Francino

BUT IT'S NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NO TNO TNO T NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTT
KATIE.
SORENSEN. (a.k.a. Katie the Roommate)
IT
S NOT

10:22am

Tyler-Rose Counts

AWWWW
 

10:22am

Susan Francino

a situation where
I need to take a break.
No no no no no no no
I have BEEN BREAKING.
BEEN TAKING A BREAK, THAT IS

10:23am

Tyler-Rose Counts

Sounds like maybe both
ME TOO

10:23am

Susan Francino

AND if I take a break much longer, it will break me.
exactly.

10:23am

Tyler-Rose Counts

*WEEP*

10:23am

Susan Francino

SOBBBBB

10:24am

Tyler-Rose Counts

it's all so BAD

10:24am

Susan Francino

I KNOW
And I know I'm getting better too but it's just SO HARD
AND IT TAKES SO LONG
AND IT'S ALSO IMPOSSIBLE TO TELL

10:24am

Tyler-Rose Counts

SO SO LONG
RIGHT

10:24am

Susan Francino

IF I'VE ACTUALLY GOTTEN THAT MUCH BETTER

10:25am

Tyler-Rose Counts

ONLY FIRM BELIEF IN SELF
WHICH IS NEVER FIRM

10:25am

Susan Francino

BUT I KNOW I HAVE, BUT -- RIGHT
RIGHT

10:25am

Tyler-Rose Counts

YOU HAVE THOUGH

10:25am

Susan Francino

THANKS

10:25am

Tyler-Rose Counts

I KNOW THAT
YOU'RE WELCOME
 

10:25am

Susan Francino

*INTERNAL SOBBING*

10:25am

Tyler-Rose Counts

*EXTERNAL SOBBING*
 

10:25am

Susan Francino

OOOHHHHHHHHH
*TOTALLY INADEQUATE INTERNET HUG*

10:26am

Tyler-Rose Counts

*TIRED HEADDESK*
 

10:26am

Susan Francino

So I'm sitting here with this scene I have LITERALLY WRITTEN -- I DON'T HAVE TIME TO CHECK NOW--BUT I BET IT'S LITERALLY SEVEN TIMES
AND I CAN'T EVEN FIGURE OUT WHAT HAPPENS IN IT.
LIKE, HOW DO CIRCUMSTANCES CHANGE?
CAN'T TELL?

10:27am

Tyler-Rose Counts

I think I'm writing a scene I've written five times

10:27am

Susan Francino

DAMN I BET I HAVE TO CUT IT
BUT I CAN'T BUT I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY
 

10:27am

Tyler-Rose Counts

DOES IT CONTAIN A MAGICAL COOKIE?

10:28am

Susan Francino

I THOUGHT IT HAD FIVE MILLION IN IT

10:28am

Tyler-Rose Counts

FIND THE COOOOKIES

10:28am

Susan Francino

FIND THE COOKIE.
THAT'S RIGHT.

10:28am

Tyler-Rose Counts

IDENTIFY THE COOKIES

10:28am

Susan Francino

FINDING.
LOOKING.
*SILENT SCREAMING*

10:29am

Tyler-Rose Counts

Can I write a blog post in which I just copy past this conversation?
*copy/paste
 

10:29am

Susan Francino

YES THAT'S FINE I THINK
YES
I AM EXCITED TO LEARN WHAT THAT MEANS
TYLER-ROSE, FINDING THE MAGICAL COOKIES IS HARD BECAUSE I GET AFRAID THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO ENJOY THINGS ANYMORE
WHICH IS SO NOT TRUE

10:31am

Tyler-Rose Counts

I THINK IT MIGHT BE FABULOUS
BUT DON"T THINK OF THAT, THINK OF COOKIES

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